...obsessive-compulsive, all-or-nothing, constantly fighting a tug-of-war battle that causes me to dive in so deeply I can't breathe I tell ya I've never been one for balance but I'm going to find it if it kills me. ;)
...staying away afraid that in my new life with my new schedule if I let myself dive in to this blog the way I really want to I might dive in so deeply that I won't be able to breathe (again) and that will have defeated the purpose of slowing down altogether.
...ever aware of my history with such things. Like trying out card-making and it wasn't enough to just make one card since coming up with the design is the tough (fun) part and you've got that stamp or that brass template and all that cardstock and patterned paper and a whole package of brads so why not just make six or a dozen? And then the suggestion why not sell them? and before I know it I've got over a hundred designs and 12 people working for me until I became the creative editor of Paper Crafts and now I make no cards whatsoever. I've got a lifetime of stories just like this one.
...enjoying the Moxie Fab World finding new ways to inspire and loving the inspiration that's happening to all of us over there.
...so in love with my job that I can't stand it sometimes I am such a lucky girl to have the opportunity to do what I do.
...disappointed I haven't lost more weight but am stronger than I've ever been in my life because of strength training twice a week and aerobic exercise at least four. In fact, I've gained a little weight but stayed in my skinny clothes. My posture's better. My outlook's better. I am better. And there's nothing like a brisk walk on these early summer mornings with the Russian Olive so fragrant my absolute favorite thing about living where I live.
...missing Nicole she's really got her own life going now and she's relying on me less and less. Which is good. It feels strange to be glad for her distance on one level but sad for it on another. That's parenthood in a nutshell. You'd think I'd be used to it by now.
...excited for tomorrow my paper crafting friend Kim Kesti is going to be in town so we're having a party on the porch in her honor and I can't wait to catch up with her and hang with my PC Peeps away from the office.
...missing you my friend I'm searching for that balance and through that journey quickly realizing that I'll never find it without you.
Hi Cath - I can so relate to much of what you've written - I've been trying to work on my all-or-nothing tendencies too and part of that is realizing what a time drain the blogging world can be. I feel like if I could clone myself two or three times, there might be enough of me to get everything I'd like to done in the way I would like it done :) Say hi to Kim for me - miss you guys!
Posted by: Alice Golden | June 04, 2009 at 09:42 AM
Hiya Cath! I'm happy to hear you're getting to "relax" a little more often!
And I have to agree...blogging can be like a vacuum. It sucks you up so fast you don't even realize it until your "bagged". Ah, the lesson life affords!! GL finding your "balance"!!
Posted by: Lori R (loree2000) | June 06, 2009 at 06:55 PM